Band was bad today, both for us and for the new guys. But Dr Lee was rather queer… usually he would be happy and joyful in front of the new guys but something was off today… He went all bonkers and all and started going on in his usual self. Well, John could not be any worse. I mean poor Ariel has been subjected to bully and teasing probably all his life and John had to be a loudhailer and announce his queries to the whole world saying “Are you sure he is in swimming?!” I mean, sure sometimes you want to be a bitch, and it is all in the name of fun… but you do realise that firstly, he is one of your precious recruits that you WILL need, and secondly he is the new guy and you should like really cut him some slack and deprive yourself of fun for once. Being an ex-GEP does not mean that you can wave away your EQ in place of your IQ. Today was a really bad day for the new people. I feel so bad for them. If I were them and to see the band in such disarray, I would be so pissed because I got scolded for nothing, get humiliated, and be really disappointed in the treatment to the new people of band. I would not even join.
I would like to see how many people turn up for audition for instruments on Saturday. I hope it will be a good turn-out. We need the people. I played to my utmost best, and I was amazed at how my stamina came back! It was so cool when I realised that it was 6pm and I still could squeeze high notes out of me! It is really not fair that people get scolded because of other people. I hate that. I don’t know why, but I always get so emotional about it and probably would start cursing the person scolding because I took it in a personal way and I hate being maligned for things which I did not do, or so I feel.
My thoughts might seem a little jumbled up, but that would probably be because I am exhausted from the long days, and long lectures. Dr Lee is mad I tell you… Main band had 41 recruits WILLING I tell you, WILLING to come for auditions and join band. It is NATURAL for people not want to join band after some consideration so you certainly cannot expect the 96 people who signed up initially to JOIN BAND. IT IS JUST IMPOSSIBLE AND CRAZY! Driving yourself nuts is good enough man, don’t ever drive someone else crazy just because you see yourself a wreck. 41 people is in my year of Recruit I/C THE PEOPLE WHO SIGNED UP. Like seriously, take a chill pill, 41 people is more than enough to replace the people leaving next year. Why are some people just so over-bearing and over-ambitious when in the first place, YOU ARE NOT THE ONE DOING THE WORK! YOU ARE JUST THE PERSON SITTING BEHIND THE DESK GIVING ADVICE AND SCOLDINGS AND ORDERS!
I would probably get killed if anyone reads this, but oh well.
And Justin, WELL SAID MAN! (Although maybe the vulgarities were a bit harsh on my ears, though not directed at me, I feel the pain) Main band should pull up their socks! You guys should like coach your juniors well. I could name people, especially people from my section who needs help, A LOT OF IT, and so if the SL is reading this, please do what you need to do. If you dared to take up the post, then dare to carry your duties out even if it means to step all over the people who work for you. Because at the end of the day, the judges, the audience, the public, would not know, care, see, or hear about how nice a guy you are and treat your section SOOOO nice while leaving the band to be sucky. I am not saying that you should kill them now, but put your foot down when needed. Afterall, this being your second year of SL leadership post, you should know what to do, or at least you SHOULD know what to do other than to let your people wander around the corridors aimlessly, make VIDEOS in classrooms during sectionals, or let them do whatever they please because you DO NOT take sectionals.
This post is real bitchy so I am sorry to all who read this. I need to let loose some before the floodgates open and everything just gushes out that I cannot even control myself. So, I am real sorry.
But then again, band was still okay for me because I was rather tired, and was going to die so to keep myself energized, I went a bit looney to myself to keep myself entertained, trying to keep the adrenaline pumping.
Okay, so enough of bitching and depressing stuff.
I am SO proud of myself! I am beginning to take notes in lectures! I took down important stuff and notes and dates and all! It is almost shocking and surprising to me! I am beginning to love taking down notes. In the all-so-boring lectures, one of the ways to keep you awake and pay attention is probably to take down notes, then you would keep yourself wide awake to take in all that is neccessary! And, one good thing is that you have all the PRECIOUS GEMS all on the paper so whatever the need, you can just refer, and everything is there, catered and customised by yourself to suit your own needs! Cool huh?! Well, yeah, that is about it for the revelations.
Once again, I must say a really big sorry for being a real big bitch up there, but things that have to be said just have to be said. It is to make people realise how other people look at them and that is definitely healthy for everyone. I don’t mind people coming up to me and criticise me provided they give evidence and a sound argument to back those claims up. I find it healthy for me. It is quite scary living your life without knowing how other people look at you. If it is bad, and you don’t know, then you keep doing it, then slowly, all the people around you will start to leave you, and you will end up lonely, and alone. But anyways, a real big sorry.
I am rather tired now, and would like to rest, but before that, Paddy Clarke is on my agenda. In any case, may everyone have a blessed evening/night and a bright new day tomorrow. May you have sweet dreams so sweet that you forget all the bad things that happened today. Goodnight people!
P.S. Once again before I sleep, I am sorry about being a bitch about everything that I said above. It is not personal I can promise you that. I love you all and it is just some of my thoughts.
Peace out,
Jenn.
